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Friday, March 14, 2014

The Tender Leaf

I wrote this poem in the process of another writing into which it was to be inserted. This is the only part of that writing that I have seen fit to publish. I learned a year or two ago that verse #3 tracks closely with Native American views of the synchronistic trajectory of time and psyche.


The Tender Leaf
© 1981, Jack L. Mace

Slowly cascades the tender leaf
    Down from tree to running brook.
So lately is this gentle life
    Wrenched from its mooring high
Down it falls . . . Down . . . 'twill soon be gone,
    And who shall, in time to come,
Know but we here that ever hung
    Such frond as now seen drifting forth?


 This passing, mean, dare we dismiss?
    Dare behold it commonly?
Truly our frames shall also pass.
    Perchance not so mild our end:
Perchance as yet unpopped buds,
    Or when our term has come full due,
And who shall know in time to come
    That ever passed such as we?


Despair we then - fear our ending?
    No.  Far more than being known
Lies assurance in our knowing:
    Our living in our hoping.
Life for others rests in our hands -
    Our lives in hands of others.
Hope for times yet to come in bond
    With time now, and now long past.


 
Better the world for our coming -
    Yea, even for our going.
Let us then rejoice in passing
    Living hope triumphantly.
Slowly cascades the tender leaf
    Down from tree to running brook.
So lately is this gentle life
    Wrenched from its mooring high.


 
Down it falls . . . Down . . . 'twill soon be gone,
    Who, in time to come, shall know?

Thursday, March 6, 2014

The One Who Made the Arrows


The One Who Made the Arrows
Featuring
THE OLD ONE and THE YOUNG ONE

by Jack L. Mace

In this following story, and others of similar nature, THE OLD ONE is no one in particular, and yet everyone; including me. Likewise, THE YOUNG ONE is no one in particular; and everyone, including me.


Joyfully, carefully THE OLD ONE went about his craft, preparing two full quivers of arrows. The old hunter carefully selected the very best and straightest from his stock of aging, drying branch-stock. From years of experience, taught by both success and failure he had learned how to select shoots for the strongest and truest flying arrows. Then he selected the best from his store of feathers for vanes and carefully crafted the arrow points. Sometimes, his arrows were for competition; sometimes for the hunt. Today He would hunt with a young friend. 

This YOUNG ONE was truly an "old" friend, because long before his birth, THE OLD ONE had known another of just such nature. Occasionally, he would pause to ponder his “old friend” and another OLD ONE. From those years past he would evoke a painful memory and wince, or a joyful memory and smile gently. Oft, he would laugh raucously.


That YOUNG ONE now long past was just so intense and impatient as this YOUNG ONE. Mostly he knew not when to hold his silence. Often angry and at odds with all around him, he was seldom truly happy. In those times of old, he was gently loved by another OLD ONE, now long past, who fed him from his own table, and cared for him without judgment even in the angriest of his moments.


THE OLD ONE worked well past night-fall at his labor of love. With labor's end he paused in satisfaction to admire his well-crafted and beautiful arrows. Then he stored his tools away, extinguished his lamp and retired for a restful night.


Gently asleep he dreamed not of joy of his hunt to come, but of distant memories from times long past; of the ancient OLD ONE and YOUNG ONE. He saw in his dreams a scene of that OLD ONE and YOUNG ONE when no others would come near save in contempt and condemnation. He saw those who were indifferent to that OLD ONE, now long past. He saw those who kept a distant vigil and would have helped if only they knew how. He viewed this ancient one’s ending, and he wept.


Dreaming past, THE OLD ONE arose refreshed by both sleep and his vision of memories. Expecting THE YOUNG ONE soon he prepared a breakfast repast. Then, their eating done, each took up his quiver and hiked into the hills in search of favored game. 


Clear sky and bright Sun promised special times; for camaraderie in the hunt; for opportunity to learn and for pleasure in their environs.


For the pleasure of their environs; THE OLD ONE did not only hunt that day. He was one with the world around. He communed with each flower almost as though they were first-name friends. He never wasted a kill, taking only that needed for food. Even field dressing his game became almost a ritual of unity with nature, for he know those entrails would feed some scavenger of the hills.


For all his love for THE OLD ONE and his desire to emulate him, THE YOUNG ONE could scarcely contain his impatience, as they went he would shoot an arrow at some target, often missing the mark. Sometimes he could retrieve his spent arrow, and sometimes not.


Each lost arrow brought THE YOUNG ONE closer to a meatless evening meal. One rule of this hunt was that they each would bag only small game, and thus he would provide his own meat. This rule was to teach care in selecting game and accuracy in shooting.


Our hunters made an unlikely pair; the one calm through years of learned discipline; the other, often impatient as a baby demanding to be fed. This unlikely pair trod on, bypassing many a doe hare with young. When at last THE YOUNG ONE sighted just the right game, a young buck hare, he nervously drew an arrow, struck it to his bow, drew bowstring to full arrow’s length, and let fly. He missed, and his quarry escaped, scampering away over the hill crest. Going to retrieve his arrow, he found it had hit a rock. It was shattered and useless.


In that ground soft from recent rains, the buck left an easily followed trail. Carefully, our young protagonist stalked his prey, and found it again perhaps a hundred yards away. Cautiously, he crept forward, coming close enough that he was assured an accurate shot and a meal.


He reached to his quiver, but with most of his arrows spent frivolously, he found only an empty quiver. He faced a lost opportunity for his favorite meal. Still, keeping a keen eye to his target he reached in desperation for a near-by rock, thinking to use it as his weapon. As he reached out, he felt a "stick" thrust into his open palm. Looking he saw that THE OLD ONE, smiling gently, had provided one of his own arrows.


Quickly, THE YOUNG ONE struck arrow to bow and drew the bow string full. He let his arrow fly and; a hit, a clean kill. He would eat well tonight. A few minutes later, THE OLD ONE made his one and only shot of the day, deftly placing his arrow just right. He too would eat well.
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Over many a passing year THE YOUNG ONE would tell and retell his experience; relating his lessons of patience learned that day. Each time he told his story, he was careful to add that he ate well that night, because he "knew the one who made the arrows.”



jlm

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

One Existential Purpose :


There are myriad differing religious and political beliefs/tenets, but there is one incontrovertible, existential fact that we must all recognize.

The one existential purpose of all adults of any species is survival of the species; not accumulation of wealth; not preservation of possessions. That means making babies and making them successful. Thus, our offspring are our primary resource; not a necessary bother. Their preservation and nurture far outweigh any other suggestible need. Existentially speaking, our adult purpose is to make the next generation successful.

How do we ensure success for future generations? Survival of our species is a societal obligation; not an individual endeavor. All economic progress for anyone starts with five essential, primal needs. Without them nothing else matters.
1.       Environment: needless to say, without it no life exists. Many people, though, follow some misguided mantra touting a need for “economic progress;” loudly denigrating the environment’s importance.
2.       Water: we live hardly a week without it. Go figure; we are some 60% water, depending on gender, age and other factors. Our blood is some 80% water.
3.       Food: without it we might survive three weeks.
Without # 1, #2, and #3 everything else – including gold – is worthless.
4.       Clothing and shelter: elemental protection. When viewing this from a Universal History angle, it would be hard to say which comes first. Even today there are primitives who live without clothing, but they have “houses.”.
5.       Training/Education: Even wired-in, instinctive drives of lower species require additional training. As natural as it is for a cheetah cub to chase moving things, its mother spends more than a year training it to hunt. Humans need more training. Without it we are no more than limited hunters/gatherers.

Success with primal-need building blocks 1 – 4 requires skill advancement. Primal existence provides access only to crude versions of them, and little more. Like lower animals early humans spent virtually all waking hours in that pursuit. Further economic progress is impossible without Primal Need building block #5.

Education contravenes rediscovery and reinvention. It helps us build advancement from old things to new and better things. It makes everything else possible. If we needed to reinvent the wheel to go somewhere else, we would likely have no idea that "somewhere else" exists. First, last, always; education is critical to movement beyond cave dweller needs.

Absurd to the max; political right-wing leadership (if it be leadership at all) tends to claim that a good economy is needed before education can be adequately funded.

While economic progress assists education, education is pre-requisite to that progress. It is the key to personal upward mobility which unlocks the doors of the economy. Without education there are no industry leaders, workers, bankers, attorneys or other professions. All wealth fails if education is not strongly supported. Without it there is no financial base for economic development. We can’t even “stand still” economically without it.

Clearly; economic progress without education is impossible. Without adequately maintained and funded education all else beyond crude versions the first four building blocks fails.

It runs no other way.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Make friends



Make friends with your problems


On Saturday morning, March 1, 2014, I listened to NPR’s “Weekend Edition;” specifically to an interview by  An NPR staff person with actress Elaine Stritch, age 89; still vital and starring in a new production. It was a riveting interview throughout the 10:25 minute piece, but one thing stood out for me. 


Near the end, when asked if she liked the line, "I like the courage of age," from her recent film she responded. 


“Yes, I do. I have to say I like it, because I think you have to make friends with it or leave it, or give up on it. You know what I mean? Because unless you can fight it and unless you can stand up to it, you might as well get it out of your house, because it's too tough to take. But it wasn't too tough to take to look at myself. It was the easiest way I had of dealing with big problems.”


As I listened, I heard her speaking directly to my own experience in dealing with something I will never be free of. Stritch will never be free from her advanced age until she passes on. I will never be free from being an Adult A.D.D. until I am in my grave. 

In the same spirit of that line that Stritch loved, it came as a great blessing one day some 35 years ago when I awoke one morning and could finally look at my face in the mirror, knowing for the first time ever that I was looking a friend in the eye. I loved myself with all my “smooth skin” and warts. I loved myself with all my successes and failures. I loved myself with all my anxiety and with my all my confidence.


Simply, I liked the courage of being ME, and I had found a great friend; my one and only very best friend.


I cannot fight being who I am. I am simply me. Even as an Adult A.D.D., I cannot fight who I am. I have learned that the only way to live successfully is to make friends with myself so that I can focus on managing my ways. To do less is to lock myself into an endless and upward spiraling cycle of frustration, anger and tears. 


In the end, there is only one thing to be accomplished by not loving that courage; by not being friends with myself. That is being locked into what I do not want; complete with all sorts of constant frustration, bitterness and tears. 


To the point, the more I focus hatred on something, the more I will become like what I hate. I will never be able to change or even manage what I do not love. If, then, there is no future in ongoing hate, the only other alternatives are the ultimate self-hatred of terminating my own life or turning to being my own BEST FRIEND. I have never hated myself or my actions enough to want to die; although I have often wished I could crawl into a hole out of sight to weather the “storm” so I wouldn’t have to live my errors down. 

Thus it was that I took the only sensible alternative; liking myself and being brutally honest in facing my problems, admitting my mistakes before someone else clubs me with them.


Then and only then can I move on.

Jack L. Mace